The Zujiuchu Mountains were unfamiliar to Ensarrian up close, so he allowed Raziel to take the lead after leaving the lake. He was thankful for the time to rest his weary feet when they took a carriage through the mountain path. He sat next to one of the windows, cheek resting in his palm and eyes watching the world pass by in silence. Many times he would steal a glance over at Sanyi, each time catching her leaning out of her own window. It almost made him chuckle for the first time in years, but the brightness her could that shone in her eyes was enough to bring a ghost of a smile to his face. For some reason that sight gave him a warm feeling in his chest and made his stomach flutter.
Ensarrian forced himself to look away from her for what had to be the one hundredth time since entering the mountains. He grumbled quietly to himself in annoyance. Why was it that no matter how many times he reminded himself to guard his heart he kept turning back to her? The dark Wyvern was too busy brooding to notice the things Raziel had laid out. It wasn’t until the little angel tapped his shoulder that she captured his attention. He apologized for his rudeness and took one of the cloaks and pairs of gloves with a grateful thank you. He pulled the cloak over his shoulders and slipped on the gloves, rubbing his hands together to help build warmth in them. Normally he would use his inner fire, but this was not a very brief visit, so it was best to save his magic for when he needs it the most.
Raziel had said this trip was only to restock her bag, but Ensarrian was skeptical. She disguised it well with bright smiles and encouraging words, but there was something hidden behind those eyes. There was sadness, and pain. He had a feeling this journey was personal to her, but couldn’t place how or why. He recalled the day they had met, sunset on the beach in Onnen. She had cried that night, he remembered very clearly. A claim that it was her birthday; even then it didn’t make much sense. Since then he had known there was more to the story, and for some reason she wouldn’t tell him. Perhaps this was connected to then somehow. But he wouldn’t ask, not yet. He trusted she would tell him when she was ready… he hoped.
Ensarrian was jerked from his thoughts when, out of the blue, Sanyi shouted and jumped out of the carriage. Raziel called after her, but there was brightness in the Wyvern’s eyes; she would not listen. He couldn’t hide his amusement as he watched Sanyi. The white flakes danced in their descent from the sky, mesmerizing her. She caught one, melting it in her hands. Another, and this one stayed. “It’s called snow,” he replied nonchalantly. “When the air is too cold, water vapor freezes and becomes snow.” Sanyi seemed satisfied with his explication and got back into the carriage. This time she was silent. All of her curiosity had gone. Now there was a calmness that washed over her as she watched the snowdrift. Her face was so soft, so… peaceful. His eyes stared at her largely, his heart fluttering. There was something— he didn’t know what, just something about seeing her that way that he liked. He swallowed and clutched his first over his racing heart, gripping the clothing hard.
Damn…
Ensarrian forced himself to look away again, feeling his face warm. He rubbed his temples as if that alone would help distract his thoughts from his fellow Wyvern, his betrothed… the beautiful girl that’s supposed to be his wife. He couldn’t seem to shake that fact from his mind. Every time he looked at her he would see her, not as the newest person to enter his life, but a girl he had known their whole lives, the precious daughter of another Alpha, the girl he had sworn to forever and always protect. That promise… he feared the thought of falling for her, but he had made a sacred promise and he had no intentions of leaving her. It was a promise he was willing to die to keep.
When Raziel began speaking Ensarrian barely noticed in time to catch what she said. He blinked and turned his eyes down on her, nodding obediently. But a single dark brow raised with suspicion. Ensarrian could not help but to wonder why she did not wish for him to go along with them, and why there was a pause in her words as she mentioned her home.
Her home… That could be personal, especially since he’s never heard her speak of it. Did it have anything to do with why she did not wish to go back home? To his surprise, Sanyi replied obligingly instead of with defiance. He wasn’t sure why, but he hadn’t expected her to warm up to being a familiar so quickly. Or perhaps it was just him who took so long to accept the role. She glanced at him, icy pools meeting his fiery ones. For a heartbeat he tensed, his heart betraying him with a flutter. “Please, I can handle myself in the cold just fine,” he countered with a phantom grin of his own. Raziel’s movements averted both of their attention to the angel. Everything about her appearance suggested something was amiss. It was so obvious that even Sanyi could see it. The angel replied simply, but there was no effort put into hiding the truth. His heart splintered at the pain in her voice, and he could not refuse her when she leaned against him. He exchanged glances with Sanyi. Her worried expression told him enough. Something was bothering Raziel, and for whatever reason she wasn’t spilling. He had tried respecting her silence and hoped she would come to him whatever she was ready. But now it has gotten to the point where he needed to give her a little push.
Keeping his expression calm, Ensarrian wrapped his arm around her shoulder and pulled her in against his chest. “I don’t understand why, but you’re hiding something from me. If you don’t trust me enough to tell me the truth, then at least trust me enough to hide your tears for you if you don’t wish for them to be seen,” his tone was soft and understanding, yet firm so that she would listen and consider what he was telling her. He pulled her closer by moving his other hand to the back of her head, hiding her face in his chest should she decide to cry, showing his words rang with truth. “It’s alright to shed tears. You can hide them from the world all you want, but please… don’t hide them from me.”