For a while he felt like he was floating, gently rocking in the absolute darkness that enveloped him, riding invisible waves. There was no heat or cold, no pain, no pressure. He just… Was. The feeling, or lack thereof, after so long was freeing. He would have sighed if he had the breath to do so. This thought didn't trouble him. He accepted that he was dead now, and if this was the afterlife then he could deal with that. He imagined closing his eyes and settling down as if to sleep, preparing himself for the rest of eternity.
Except, when he did so, an image appeared before him within his mind's eye. The image was clear. The same hated face that had been haunting him for so long. He knew that face better than he had known his own, not surprising since he had always shied away from his own gruesome reflection and the fact that vain as she was she had her unthinking lackeys display her image everywhere. There was a thrumming sensation that spread throughout his very being, whatever that was now. Anger vibrated through him, and suddenly he was sinking, fast.
He landed hard, in a sprawled heap. He groaned, bracing himself for the pain that such a fall should bring before his thoughts caught up with him. Important facts returned to him. He was dead, he was sure about that, had experienced it and still remembered it clearly. His body had no feeling left within it, for he had no body any more. Why, then, was he vaguely aware of arms and legs? Hands and feet? Fingers and toes? He opened his eyes, eyes that he should no longer have, and was greeted with nothingness. There was no difference between having eyes open or shut, save the sensation. Was this to be his new reality, then? Wandering throughout darkness, unable to feel, unable to see? He shrugged at the thought, something his living body would have done in a lopsided, painful way, but his current body did smoothly. Was it right to call what he had now a body? He raised hands to touch his chest and was surprised to find resistance, a firmness quite unlike that of his living body. He ran fingers over smooth skin, up to a neck, feeling a face that was nothing like the one he recognized. Well then, if this was the afterlife at least it came with perks. Eternity without pain, within a body that so far seemed far superior to his own. Again, he would have sighed if he had the breath to do so, but this would have been full of contentment.
Hello there, friend.
Angelo stood perfectly still, eyes darting to find the source of the voice. It was rich, cultured, the accent… Different from any he had heard before. There was a musical quality to it that at the same time intrigued him and set him on edge. He felt like he was being mocked and invited. He didn't like the feeling, but he didn't know why. At least he wasn't doomed to spend eternity alone, unless this was some divine judge sent to weigh his soul. He had heard some religions believed in such things, though he himself had spurned religion in life. Considering the circumstances of his life, who would blame him? Well, there was one person for sure, and if she did then the others would, which meant… He tried to swallow, but found he had no spit to do so. The feeling wasn't uncomfortable, just a lack of sensation, one he was adjusting to surprisingly quickly. His search for the source of the voice had of course been fruitless, either it was too dark to see or there was nothing to see. Though, if it was the latter then why did he feel like he had a body? A body that felt like it stood upon a floor? Inspiration struck him and he reached for the magic that had been nestled within his hideous mortal body. He didn't know much, but perhaps he could form a light?
There was a chuckling, the sound echoing around him, seemingly coming from all directions at once in an unsettling way. The throat that produced the sound could only be the one that had spoken just now, there was the same musical tone, the seem deepness.
My my, you adapt quickly, don't you? Let us help you.
A spark lit somewhere in the distance, shedding a gentle warmth on… Nothing. Angelo looked around, but everything was still dark. He looked down at himself, but there was nothing there. The light source was too far away, it seemed, for him to be touched by the light. That was the explanation. He took a step forward, and as he did the light moved further away. Another step, and the same thing. He tried to run, maybe twenty paces, but the light remained just out of reach. As he came to a halt the chuckling began again.
There there, child, wait just a moment.
Angelo stood still, waiting as instructed. Time stretched on and he had the feeling he was being tested. What was the test, though? How long he would stand here before breaking? Whether or not he would stand here? He thought about it, but at the end of the day it came down to one thing. He was dead already, so what difference did it make how long he stood there waiting? Closing his eyes, he let the darkness surround him again and waited, searching for that calm feeling he had had.
There now. I think you are ready for us to talk.
Angelo opened his eyes, slowly, calmly, no longer rushing. There before him, within the light, stood… A jester? He had heard of such people, seen one once traveling through a village he and his mother had spent some time in. That one had been dressed in bright motley, to catch the eye and excite the children and adults alike. This one was in blacks and grays, the pattern was familiar but the colours so muted. Was this because they were dead? Or, because Angelo was dead? He didn't believe that to be the case. He looked up into the face but instead his eyes found a mask, one side silver and set in a frown, the other golden and smiling. Something about the mask caused an itch at the back of his mind, there was something about it…
Ah, my child. Your life has seen you suffer through much, hasn't it? Why not step into the light, talk with me a spell?
Angelo was distracted from his train of thought. Gingerly, he took a step forward, but this time the light did not move. His hesitation did cause the motley figure to chuckle again, though.
He doesn't trust us….
The voice was different from the first… There was an almost feminine edge to it. Angelo stopped, but the figure before him didn't move or speak any further. He considered retreating back into the darkness, forgetting this encounter. He could go back, he was sure of it, to just floating.
Oh child, if only they would let you. There is only so long that darkness can distract death, no matter how well they are acquainted.
He could almost
feel the smile in the figure's voice, as if he was making some kind of joke. Angelo had no idea what that joke was, though, and found he had come to a branching path. It came down to the same thing though. He was already dead, what was left for him to lose?
If only the child knew what we knew….
Angelo went to hold breath that was no longer there and stepped forward into the light. Nothing happened, no pain, no magical sensations. He was just stepping into the light. He hadn't thought about it before, but his movements were so smooth, so polished. He looked down, and was surprised to see a well muscled, tanned body. He ran his fingers over his skin once more, eliciting more chuckles from his companion.
See what could have been, child.
The figure lifted a hand as he said this and a mirror appeared before him. Angelo stood, speechless, as he beheld the reflection that stood before him. The face was handsome, the body lean and attractive. Completely alien to the body he had once known, though there, around the eyes… Yes, there were hints of the face he had known, and shunned. His fingers were tracing the lines of his cheekbones, tracing around the eyes and up into the silky brown hair which hung down to his shoulders.
This could have been, should have been you, if not for… Intervention…
The image before him changed, warping into that much hated face. Angelo's vision burned and before he knew what he was doing he was swinging a fist at the glass, aiming for his rosy lips. He sought to destroy, but his fist passed through nothing.
He hates her too… Almost as much as us…
Yes, he does.
Angelo stood, feeling like his chest should be heaving with ragged breath. But of course, it never would again. Because of her.
Oh, I wouldn't be so sure of that, my child. We can help, as it is not yet too late to scoop you away from death.
Angelo stared at the figure, the harlequin standing still with the mask staring right back at him. He couldn't see any eyes within those dark holes, but he could feel them. "For a price?" The question didn't cause the chuckling that he had expected it to.
Oh my child, there is always a price, no matter how I wish there were not. For you, the price shall be all that you are, your mind, your sanity, your soul. Even then the chance you will get your revenge is slim.
The voice seemed full of sadness and regret. Angelo faltered, unsure. Out in the darkness, lights began to shine, illuminating an image. It looked like a rose bush, with one bright red rose at the top. Vines, lit unnaturally from within, descended from this first rose, spreading out further and further, touching upon hundred, thousands of others. The lines that spread did so unobstructed, save for one branch. One branch twisted with another, and another, their vines crossing, the light that had shone becoming sickly. It ended with a blackened rose. Angelo's eyes burned with tears he didn't have. One by one, the roses above were cut away, falling to the floor, dead. Angelo's eyes burned as the last two fell.
"What do you ask of me?"
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The darkness overcame him once more when they were done. He didn't want to trust the strange figure. There had only ever been one person he could trust. The promises he had made, though. If they were true, he could make it all right. Or if not right, he could correct some of the wrongs. It wasn't going to be pleasant, the figure had been honest with him about that. The initial sensation and what was to come next. Angelo had been warned that if he chose to do this, then he would end up regretting the decision many times. He had been warned a second, and a third time, that he may never get his chance. The hatred was a burning coal within his chest, though, something he had felt even in that world between. It had been enough to see him agreeing, to hearing out what was to come. To making a deal. There was the sensation of him falling… Upwards, at incredible speed, and then sudden unbearable agony.
For the briefest of moments he was back within his own body, dead yet feeling every one of his wounds and his affliction. He tried to scream but he had no air within his lungs, no way of drawing breath to do so. He immediately regretted his decision, sobbing within his own mind, begging to take the choice back. He didn't want this. He didn't want to be stuck within this body, trapped, feeling everything but unable to move. The bastard had tricked him. Somewhere, deep within his mind, was a familiar chuckling, following by a wrenching sensation that saw his consciousness torn free from his body.
What came next was… Indescribable. It was similar to the floating feeling within the blackness, yet at the same time, entirely different. He was floating, outside of his body, watching as his murderers used tools to dismember it and stuff the pieces into sacks. The agony he had been feeling, he hadn't realized at the time what he had been feeling. Everything had felt so wrong after the peace he had felt. It was sickening, a sensation he could still feel, it seemed.
Do not linger, child. She awaits you nearby, and here is your anchor, your way of remaining.
Angelo, with some determination, was able to turn his consciousness in the direction he thought the voice was coming from. There was a brief flicker, a shadow, but there was no dark jester stood there. Upon the ground, however, there was a sack cloth doll. Angelo hesitated, for a brief second, and then with sheer force of will he moved himself over to it.
Blackness surrounded him once more and all sensory input with it. There was no feeling, no hearing, no seeing, no smell, no taste. He could not move. He was… Trapped. The only thing he could appreciate about this was the fact that there was no pain. Had he taken too long? Was he dead again? No, this felt different from before. He tried calling out, but was unable. He tried moving. Nothing. He screamed for what felt like hours, but nothing happened. He was trapped within his own mind. Or was he?
Calming himself, he reached out with his mind, and found he was surrounded by others. He could feel so many of them now. There was the feeling of joy as he skimmed the mind of a child, sadness from a woman who had recently lost her husband to war, hunger from rats, so many of them hiding close by. He had been told to look for one mind, though, one particular mind. That of a mage, trapped within a life she didn't care for. He had been told she would be nearby. He had been told her would know her when he found her. He skimmed through the minds of more people before he began building himself a mental landscape, placing the minds and their relative distance, and those of people he could feel but had not touched. There was indeed one that was different. He reached out for it.
"Help me." He sent to her, sending her an image of the alley, the doll, and a sense of the fear he was feeling.