Simon watched with interest as Salem took out a piece of parchment and sketched out an obelisk bearing an unfamiliar mark. Reaching out, he pulled it toward himself as she spoke. The Knight nodded as he inspected the image closely. "Howlite, how fitting for a White Knight. I will watch for these stones while on campaign. Those I do apologize in advance, for I surely will do your symbol no justice. I lack your artistic talent." Illustration had never been Montefort's strong suit.
The Knight smiled politely in the face of her mildly insulting warning regarding missed payments. "You needn't worry about that, my Lady, I have given you my word. That still means something for an anointed Knight. You will have your pay, and it will be on time. I assure you." Courtesy is a man's armor in civilized society, his father's words rang in his ears through the years. Simon held on to his smile and warm tone, despite how grinding the Goddess' rudeness had become.
She is truly immune to all charm and fellowship, he realized as she rejected his invitation to spectate at the tournament. His disappointment churned in his gut, souring to disgust as he studied her exasperated reaction at his humble request to be blessed. Look at how easily condescends, Simon thought in wonder as she spoke of gifts and poison, as if I were some dim foolish child. For all her divine power she is blind, unable to see past my smile and my bright clothes. She knows nothing of the scars underneath.
Simon snorted at her words. "Sage advice, I'm sure, but what do you know of sweat and blood? I have shed much and more of both. Let me tell you of the sweet taste of victory."
He paused for a sip of wine, he needed the fire in his belly for this tale. "When I was six -and-ten I had just won my spurs at the tourney at Ashford. That summer a highlander clan descended from the mountains to raid our lands. I was still half a lad then, though I was considered a man grown and now an anointed Knight on top of that, so when the call to arms came I answered. Most of the soldiers I served with were boys no older than I, many of them peasant lads conscripted from nearby villages. We were all eager to go off and fight. The glory of it, the sweetness of the victory to comes… We were sure that songs would be sung of our noble deeds."
Simon paused his tale, looking down a moment at the weathered wood of the tabletop. When his gaze lifted again his face had darkened. "Sometime after we mustered and marched out we came upon a border village. It was nothing more than a blackened shell. The raiders had stolen the villagers' harvest, and their treasures, and put all their homes to the torch. They slew all the men, and then the elderly. They dashed children's heads against rocks while their mothers watched. The bastards raped girls as young as seven, and carried them off with them for another go. There was one woman we found, bleeding and hysterical. She had been pregnant. The highlanders wagered on the sex of her child, then cut it out from her belly. I retched at the sight of it all, and all thought of glory left me with my breakfast. Confronted with so much pain and misery that we could do nothing to heal, we felt completely and utterly powerless.
"Let me tell you a secret, goddess: a warrior loathes feeling powerless. That is why he becomes a warrior, why he forges his mind and body in the iron furnace of his will. So that he will never have to know the feeling. And when he does feel it, his anger boils inside of him. It did so in us then, and so we set out to bring pain to those savages who had committed such atrocities against us. I had trained all my life for battle, but it was not until then that I wanted to kill. We pursued them into the wooded foothills. It was poor strategy, but our blood was up and we would have nothing but vengeance now. In those woods the highlanders doubled back and fell upon us from all sides. The battle raged for half the day. Somehow in the chaos I came upon their Chieftan and slew him in single combat, and his Captain as well, though it nearly cost me mine life. Finally the highlanders broke and ran. We pursued, killing as many as we could get our hands on. No quarter was given that day."
Simon sighed. The memory of that battle was nearly two decades old, but it was as vivid as if it had happened yesterday. "I received my first scar that day. The first of many." Lifting his hand, Simon tugged down on the left side of his collar: revealing a jagged white line of puckered flesh that ran down between neck and shoulder past a crooked collar bone. "I haven't been able to lift my left arm above my head since that day, but I can still hold a shield. That's good enough for a Knight. I remember walking the battlefield after the dust had settled. Seven of every ten of us had fallen. I watched my friends lying there in the mud, holding in their entrails as the cried for their mothers. I watched their lifeblood seep into the clay, until they cried no more. Tell me, how sweet do you think I found that victory?"
The veteran Knight scoffed at the girl who sat across from him. "You think us nobles vapid peacocks, but a divine should know the power of symbolism. We are meant to be seen, meant to be an example of civility and honor and progress. To show the people what a better world looks like. But we are also required to do dark deeds in times of need, for above all we are required to protect those people. That is why they give us their grain and their gold, why they allow us to judge their disputes and issue to them edicts. For when the wolves call, it is us who answer. That is why I truly need these arms and armor. Not to win gold and glory in a tourney, but to get back to my duty: protecting the powerless from those who would prey upon them. That is the duty of the White Knight."
His eyes narrowed. "You know, after that battle I wondered about the Gods. I wondered whether they had blessed us to achieve that victory, or if they had cursed us by inflicting that blight upon us. Now I realize it was neither. Apparently, they were too busy running shipping companies and brokering loans to give a damn." Reaching across the table, Simon took the quill and inked his signature to the agreement. Grasping the dagger, he drew it across his palm and held his fist over the contract. He held the girl's gaze as blood pooled on paper, until he reached down and pressed his signet ring into it. When he pulled away the yellow of the parchment shone through the congealing blood in the crescent moon-and-stars sigil of his House.
"There you go, woman," he declared, all pretense of courtesy vanished, "in a moon's turn I will have won that tourney, and you'll have your silver back in hand. Then I can go back to protecting the people and you can go back to profiting off of them." Dropping the dagger on the table, he pulled out a kerchief and wrapped it around his bleeding hand. Standing, he downed his cup in one last draught, slammed it down upon the table and scooped up the bag of silver. Without so much as a backward glance he turned and strode away.
"M'lord?" The serving girl asked as he walked past the bar. Simon jerked a thumb over his shoulder. "The bill is hers," he declared, and stepped back out into the light.