She was not her mother.
It was a fact that many on Myna had often forgotten when addressing the young woman and over the years she had done her best to prove this fact to those who said they saw Kythe in her.
On many occasions Kaya had felt guilty about doing everything she could to demonstrate she was not her mother; it wasn’t that she didn’t love her mother, it wasn’t that she resented her or didn’t respect her… it was that she feared becoming like her.
When she had been little Kaya had had a nightmare, brought on by wandering into the caves in Lithyr Valley and hearing the whispers of the deceased within the halls of that mountainous dead place. She had run to her mother for comfort that night; finding Kythe awake in the early morning hours despite her father being in bed himself. She had crawled into her mother’s lap and cried into her chest; calming down only when Kythe had held her tightly and pressed Kaya’s ear to her chest so that the soft beating of her heart could soothe the child. Kaya had told her tale and her mother had spoken softly to her; telling her that the dead in those halls could do her no harm - that they only wished to reach out to the living because they were lonely and lost, that all the souls there were good people that she herself had known well.
It had been at this time that Kaya had looked into her mother’s eyes; she had looked before but never really
seen and suddenly she had been afraid. There was strength there and love for her, she knew that, but behind all of that was a tired and terrible grief that Kaya had never noticed before, brought to the forefront of her mother’s emerald gaze as she spoke of the past and those lost within the mountains.
Her mother was one of the strongest people she knew, she adored her, she idolised her… but she was terrified of sharing that grief - Kythe had never told them the story of her past but from that moment Kaya had become curious, asking those who knew her mother of old about what she had seen… how her mother had not gone mad she did not know… but it only fuelled that fear of becoming her, especially since so many had said that she reminded them of Kythe when she had been young.
She was no warrior, not like her mother was - Kaya could fight; she could hold her own and she was deadly if she needed to be, she
had inherited her mother’s determination and overall stubbornness after all however she preferred a ranged weapon to a melee one and had trained more as a healer than a warrior… she had no desire to be on the front lines, she wanted to protect those she loved in a different way.
Sadly when her mother had disappeared a lot of the responsibility that had once been Kythe’s had fallen to Kaya - Raith wanted nothing to do with his family beyond his rage and Luna had shied away from anything associated with their mother, wishing to be even less like Kythe than Kaya had… Who else was there but the eldest of the children to take their missing mother’s place in the world?
Swiftly she had learnt how to hold her own; she might not want to be a carbon copy of her dame but there was no denying whose daughter she was - her golden-amber locks were not like her mother’s and the jade coloured eyes were softer in expression than the emeralds that seemed constantly on fire that her mother was famous for… but swiftly her determination came to light and no one could deny that Kaya could just as easily hold herself in the position of a leader. Reluctant or otherwise.
So far the search for Kythe had been fruitless but neither Kaya, Valandil or Pol were remotely willing to give up - some people recognised the description of the woman but as many of the people they had spoken to had said… Elven women with wings like a Dragon were dime a dozen in Revaliir - sadly they didn’t know her by name, not personally at least, so they could not confirm whether or not she was the woman they were looking for. More was the pity.
So far Kaya had not been far from her father’s sight; she hadn’t minded much, she enjoyed his company and she had to admit that she had always been closer to Pol then she ever had to Kythe, she had always swayed to her wolven form over her Draconic one… She had wondered, as she had sat staring at the stars, if she had hurt her mother with her choices. The young woman had to admit that she remembered the looks her mother used to give her; the looks of longing when Kaya had chosen to transform into a wolf constantly, always looking to spend time with her father rather than seeking out her mother for even a moment… she had only really come to hate herself for that distance when Kythe had gone and she hated herself even more for the fact that even now, while searching for her mother, she was keeping that distance between them even with the woman not present.
Kaya had been deep within her thoughts when the invitation had mysteriously found its way into her hands, with her name written elaborately upon the front. Curiosity and a need to venture out on her own had driven the girl to answer it; she had forced Valandil to promise to stay quiet - that should her father wake before her return then Valandil would put his mind at ease; if
she had received an invitation then maybe, just maybe, so too had her mother.
The Ancient Dragon had been reluctant to agree but had done so for one reason only - it was exactly what her mother would have done. For the first time since deciding to be anything other than her mother Kaya was quite proud of that statement from her mother’s Bonded; maybe being like her mother in this instance would allow her to find the woman at last.
For once the young woman had decided to let free her wings as her mother did - furled against her back the glistening golden limbs stood out like great ornaments picked out to compliment her dress. Picking up the long ivory coloured skirts of her dress Kaya settled her mask upon her face; the gold and red complimenting her golden locks and enhancing her jade eyes as she stepped into the Hanging Gardens, her expression full of wonder as she looked at the place she had found herself in.
Myna was beautiful but never had she seen anything like this before; a lantern floated past her face and she smiled, reaching out a hand to hover close to one of them, not quite daring to touch it as she did not wish to disturb its journey. Walking amongst the lanterns, wings furled against her back to ensure she did not known anyone over, the young woman watched the others who had been invited to this wondrous place. Their outfits made them look like butterflies and after a moment or two it became clear to Kaya that many of them were lovers. She blushed at that; suddenly feeling as though she were intruding on their most private moments.
Looking away Kaya found herself on the top level of the gardens, looking down the centre to watch as the lanterns released by lovers and friends alike drifted upwards towards the heavens, carrying the love of those who had released them up into the stars. She had never been in love; of the three children only Luna had found herself someone to give her heart to. She had envied her sister that union,envied that she could be so free and able to love where she could not… it wasn’t that she was not allowed but something always held her back - whenever men her age had made advances she had used her training to be a Healer as an excuse, or her duties since her mother had vanished… she knew deep down it was fear that kept her from letting them in, fear of having her heart broken, of letting them into her life and losing them somehow… her mother had become who she was because of such things and she did not want to run that risk in her life.
Now, as she stood watching the dancers and the lanterns and lovers together she wished she had given herself the chance to fall in love, watching Luna with her husband and her children had made her realise what she had passed up.
Sighing heavily Kaya watched the others dance, a sadness in her eyes that mirrored her mother’s in a way that Kaya would have shuddered at had she seen it for herself - in trying to be anything but her mother Kaya had created her own grief… and now her heart ached for the woman she had pushed away for so long.
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